
Chapter 59
A few hours later we decided we should probably find a hotel for the night, and schedule a cab to pick us up in the morning so we could go to the hospital for Tom’s treatment. A few blocks from the coffee shop we found one, and walked inside to check in. We rode the elevator to the top floor, walking to the end of a long hallway before reaching our room. The minute we were inside I was jumping on the bed. “Will you ever grow up?” Tom said laughing, grabbing my leg, making me fall back down onto the bed. I laughed as I landed with a bounce. “Like you should be talking” I replied, laying back and staring up at the ceiling. Tom fell asleep a short while later his eyelids fluttering slightly as he slept; I wondered what he was dreaming about as I moved about the hotel room, opening cupboard doors. I explored the small room slowly, before sitting down at the desk in the corner of the room. I picked up the hotel pen and began writing on the small pad of sticky notes. “Dream Big” I wrote on the first one I ripped it off sticking it on the wall in front of me, “Positive Energy” I wrote on the next, “Live Forever” I wrote on the 3rd adding it to my collection on the wall in front of me. Tom was stirring behind me, I heard him whispering the words on the sticky notes as he read them off the wall. “I don’t have to live forever liv, I’m not afraid to die, I just don’t want to lose you yet” I looked at him a hint of fear in my eyes. “Remembering Dan today hurt, but it also reminded me that I’ve never forgotten him, he’s still here with me, as long as you don’t forget me, it will all be okay”. My eyes began to fill with tears, “I could never forget you, I never will, but you’re not allowed to leave me just yet” “Didn’t mean to upset you” he said wrapping his arms around me. “It’s just I had a dream about Dan and it got me thinking, I just want to make sure I’ve made my mark, that I don’t leave the world unnoticed” I stared at him blankly, “how could you ever think anyone would ever forget you, that’s something I’ve always promised you, that I won’t ever forget you”. He gave me a weak smile squeezing my hand; let’s go outside, he led me over to the window slowly opening it. “Are you insane?” I asked as he began to climb up the fire escape onto the roof. “cmon, we’re already on the top floor it’s just a little climb” I shook my head as I followed him outside. A few moments later we were settled on the roof of the hotel looking out into the night. I was terrified but excited at the same time, the adrenaline pulsing through my veins. “okay so out of everything I want to know, what have I taught you” I looked at him a thoughtful look on his face, I thought a moment trying to find the right words. “That what makes something possible is determination, as long as your dedicated you can make your dreams come true” he laughed, “you’re the one who’s been pushing me the whole way, I think you taught me that more than I taught you”. I smiled “well maybe it takes two to make something work, maybe we needed to push each other” “I think you’re right” he said smiling. “Can I ask you what happened with Dan in your dream?” “He was there, alive, it was like he never died, it was like going back and reliving my past. I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately, I miss him”. The honesty in his voice shook me, I didn’t really know what to say “You’re a good friend Tom Tom, and I know he misses you too” “It’s just Dan and I got into a big fight right before he died, I wish we could have fixed things before he passed” I felt a twinge of pain hearing him speak. “Dan and I fought a lot, the only time we weren’t fighting was when we were playing guitar together” he continued. I thought a moment before climbing back inside, returning a minute later with his guitar in hand. I’ll never understand how his guitar managed to survive a train crash, but thankfully it did, he would have been lost without it. I handed it up to him as I climbed back to join him. “Then play guitar now, pretend he’s here” I said settling beside him. He took the guitar from me, slowly putting the strap over his shoulder, bowing his head he began to play. ( The Ross Song- BriBry http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pik2XcLXCEw )
I’m no longer afraid of death, knowing that I’ll meet you when it comes, But I’ll live and live until it does,
I smiled at him, as he began to play, louder and louder in the dark of the night
We’ll never stop loving you, We’ll never stop thinking of you, We’ll never stop wearing your clothes, writing you songs, And living the path that you put us on
(The Ross Song, is dedicated to Ross who lost his life battling cancer, BriBry wrote this song for him, as a way of celebrating his life, and never forgetting him ♥)







